Shot the Moon

May 28

Habit

I’ve always had this interesting habit. When I stay up late playing a sandbox game of any sorts, example: Skyrim, Oblivion, Fallout, Minecraft, and (A long time ago) WoW. Right as I have decided, okay I need to go to sleep, I start heading back to my house or whatever has been declared as that, take off my characters armour and change them in to more comfortable, bed suitable clothes, and log my character out right next to the bed as if they were settling down for the night too. I understand this is totally irrelevant and pointless an action, but I still like it, gives me more of an attachment to my character, makes me feel like they still exist as an entity when I have left them. I know what they’re doing because it is what I am doing. Snoozing through the night, then waking up the next morning to go on adventures.

I just typed this as I was waiting for the sun to set in my Minecraft world, Goodnight everybody.

May 26

May 25

I wish I was capable of having an early night

It’s like the second my head hits the pillow, my mind springs forth with hundreds of scenarios. Things that could happen, Things that could have happened, And things I wish will happen. This is what happens when I don’t have something for my mind to linger on. A thought to comfort me, something that in my mind is a real thing. A sure thing, which for me is a misnomer, but happiness for the most part.
I suppose it isn’t the most awful state I could be in, some thoughts generate hope. Optimism. Excitement.
At least I can take solace in the fact that I might at least have a future.